Thursday, December 16, 2010

New addition to our (neko) family...

meet Chiko...the newest addition to our little family...
DOB: Nov 8, 2010

Chiko is the baby sister of Choki. ain't she the cutest? she actually had 2 other siblings...but they didn't survive.

kasih ibu membawa ke syurga

and now i left you with a video of Chiko fighting her sleepy mood...

batik skirt

sewn this skirt from batik...itsy pitsy but still my sewing skill needs a lot of improvement. no tutorial to refer to. i just sewn it according to my own logic hehe....

another way to encourage myself to wear batik during confinement period later. kalo pakai normal kain batik, surely asyik tertanggal sbb saya anak moden...tak reti pakai kain batik dengan cara yang betol hehehe...

Sunday, December 12, 2010

afternoon chat

i am still waiting for the moment...the labor moment :) i have started taking leaves since last week as i couldn't bear the tiredness of having to entertain people at work. am happily into my 39 weeks of pregnancy. had started to have mild contraction every now and then. but that's all about it. no unbearable painful yet.

i wanted to jot down about my pregnancy. so in the future, i can go back and read about my journey. this journal is solely for my own reference (and hubby & the baby inshaallah)...


this pregnancy is a much awaited pregnancy for both hubby & i. we have been trying to conceive (TTC) since end of 2008. i had my previous pregnancy in June 2008. unfortunately i had to miss-abort the fetus at 12 weeks of pregnancy as he has stopped developing. yes, it was devastated for both of us but life must goes on. we TTC manually with the help of clomid & folic acid but to no avail. until in the early of Jan 2010, Allah finally showed us the way. I was diagnosed with PCOS and straight away were sent to do LPOD. Alhamdulillah, 2 months after the operation, we finally managed to get pregnant spontaneously. great news for both of us and our families. but we tried to not go overboard with the joy.

the first 3 months of pregnancy weren't as smooth as i want it to be. at 10 weeks, i had a bleeding and was rushed to TMC's ER. i specifically remember that day. it was saturday afternoon, we were at tmn. desa having our car waxed & polished. i did a lot of walking that morning. plus the week before, i helped to push the car as hubby 'brilliantly' got the car stucked on the roadside of my hometown. long story short, i was in the toilet and saw some blood spotting. i freaked out but still trying to maintain my coolness. as i told hubby about the spotting, we both were speechless. the previous tragedy came crawling back into my mind. i didn't cry as i already prepared myself for any bad consequences. at TMC's ER, the spotting turned into red-colored blood. the doc-on-call didn't know what to do with me. so he contacted my doc. after some checking, i was given premarin injection to support the pregnancy and was told to come back on monday. it was a long weekend for me. on monday, i was told the baby is doing great. however, i still need to receive premarin injection once per 3 days to support the pregnancy until i reached 13 weeks. the needle has become close friend to my buttock which turned blue after so much of injection. alhamdulillah, i passed another test. God's test to me.

at 3 months of pregnancy, my blood reading showed 11.3mmol/L after completed the diabetes test. again, i was put to another test. this time, gestational diabetes. i took it patiently. i was told to control my diet. i even had to see the dietitian every month to track on my progress. probing my little fingers for blood reading everyday has become my routine. but alhamdulillah, all the while my reading never went beyond 8mmol/L even with plenty of rice & sweet things i consumed everyday. so i guess i made a mistake in the first place. i should have drink a lot of plain water and possibly go to the toilet before taking the first reading so i won't have to go thru the hassle of diabetes watch-out. well, lesson learned. next pregnancy, make sure consume a lot of plain water after drinking the sugar high orange glucose drink to stay away from high reading. anyway, who says the glucose drink was yuckie? mine was so delicious!! it tasted like carbonated orange drink hehe.

thru out the pregnancy, i suffered no morning sickness. alhamdulillah. but i am allergic to obimin, the pre-natal vitamin. everytime i consumed obimin, i would suffer severe headache and vomit and sweating like there is no one's business. so i was prescribed sango-bion instead. i can still walk very fast until i approached 36 weeks of pregnancy. i  had no trouble with swollen elephant feet until i reached 38 weeks. the only thing that i suffered was wardrobe malfunction hahahaha. my belly grows very quickly i need to have new maternity attire every month, so to speak.

baby's first kick kicked-in as early as 18 weeks of pregnancy if i'm not mistaken. she hasn't stop kicking eversince and it became very active during the night. now at 39 weeks, she still managed to surprise me with her full swing karate motion. at 4 months of pregnancy, i looked like a heavily pregnant woman as my body frame was petite. i started to receive the "bile-nak-due-ni" question as early at 28 weeks of pregnancy.

hubby & i have prepared our baby for her future. we signed up for PRUmy child plan including PRUearly start plan. with the increase in health cost, having an insurance coverage is essential to help with the medical care. the best thing is, my baby's education plan will also be covered in this policy.

so that's my pregnancy story. i hope when my baby is able to read this, she will appreciate what i've gone thru. all the pain, all the money, all the energy.

i thot with gestational diabetes, i can trick my doc into pushing me for early labor, induced labor. but as the doc said, baby's doing great, mommy's healthy. there is no reason for induce labor. just need to wait patiently for the natural pain to kick-in. i hope by next week, i can deliver the great news to everyone. i am secretly praying for everything to go as smooth as it can. and hopefully it will be a normal delivery with no other complication.

until then, please pray for me...

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

mini project for the little one

alhamdulillah, mini project for our junior is now completed. i can finally go into the labor in peace *but unfortunately still waiting for the pain to kick-in*

each item took me only a day to complete. but to complete the whole set took me more than a month :) i sewn a pillow case, 2 mini bolster cases & a mini comforter. the fabric were bought from Anna Patchwork House.

why the color chocolate & cream? well, simply because i love chocolate hehehe....


Wednesday, December 1, 2010

mommy's wishlist...

wanna know what is my current wishlist?? here we go...













K's Kids: Play n Rest Cribmat (music)

Mei Tai

for the baby of course

Monday, November 8, 2010

macam vios

wife: yang, kaki i macam bengkak kan? tengok, tangan pon sama...
hubby: tak bengkak. tapi macam kembang...
wife: kembang??
hubby: aah. macam vios...
wife: huh? *nak gelak ke, nak marah?*

Thursday, October 7, 2010

i'm actually into my 29weeks of time flies so fast...i felt like it was just yesterday that i found out i was pregnant. anyhow, i'm now looking like a 9month pregnant lady. i've gained 9kgs so far. baby is of the size she is supposed to be. so i don't know how can my belly look that big. is it because of my petite frame? could be hmm...

today, hubby told me that my mom-in-law said that women can go to normal labor as early as 32weeks. is like 3 weeks away from now. question is, am i really really ready? seriously, i'm not ready..mentally, physically. heck, i haven't got the time to shop for baby stuff yet *sob sob sob* i really really need to stick with the newborn checklist this time.

tapi stroller, car seat, breast pump dah beli mase mega sale last 2 months :) *suke suke* sangat determine nih nak didik anak pasal safety since baby lagi. baby cot not yet. apparels baru ade 3 sets. diapers not yet. toiletries not yet. aish...looks like there are a lot more to go...we've bought single bed for our middle room. for preparation my grandma staying over during my confinement period. but the house is yet to be kemas. suddenly panic sebab i still have a lot more to do huhu...

i haven't had the chance to enrol in any antenatal class. but i'm lucky as my grandma is a kampung midwife and my MIL is a nurse. so that took care of my confinement items & antenatal class hehe. probably will deliver at tropicana. still under the care of dr. surinder. costs a bomb to us. and a year of savings. but i think its all worth it. it better be...

and honestly, i haven't done much research or reading about pregnancy or motherhood. all i did for the past 7 months was to just go with the flow and have a first hand experience on everything.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku nanti...

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

ptg ni saya rasa sedih sangat-sangat...
despite baru graduate dari course the 7 habits of highly effective people...
nak tau sebab ape???
sebab saya dah tak muat nak pakai baju ibu kesayangan saya *sobsobsob*
selama ni songlap baju mak je kalo kat umah puchong
tapi akhirnya saya terpaksa mengalah dengan diri sendiri
dan start shopping baju besar-besar uth diri sendiri
yang hanya akan dipakai selama 2 bulan lebih aje
pastu dah bole bungkus masuk dlm beg
kemudian korek balek 2-3 thn akan dtg plak

ade tak sesapa sudi nak pinjamkan saya baju perut kembung mereka?
sebab saya tgk baju-baju kat pasaran macam tak secantik baju orang perut kempis la...

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Paradigm Shift

If you want small changes, work on your behavior; if you want quantum-leap changes, work on your paradigms.
--Stephen R. Covey

Tuesday, September 28, 2010


it's almost 3am and here i am in front of the laptop terkebil-kebil dunno what to do. went to bed around 9-ish. terjaga around 2am as i couldn't manage to find the best position to sleep. pusing sini tak kene. pusing sane perut senget berat sebelah. telentang sakit tulang belakang. padahal dah ampu dengan extra pillows. takpe prektis utk berjaga malam di kendian hari nanti kot.

now, i'm easily penat. dan semput sesak nafas. sorry kepada semua jemputan open house & weddings. it is just not the right time for me to go. kalo sebelah rumah i can show my face 10-20mins. if it requires car trip for more than 20mins, i would have to pass. people predicts i would go to labor earlier than i should. tengok perut pon macam dah jatuh ke bawah sket. baby's position pon dah always kepala di bawah. honestly, i'm not ready yet for this little one. i mean in terms of her clothing & other tools. blom terbuka hati nak pegi membeli-belah. tapi all the big big things dah complete. names? talking about names...there is only 1 name that we have thought of. kalo ditakdirkan keluarnya dua...or keluarnya yang perlu pakai warna biru, boy i'm so in trouble!

ok, my choki needs my attention. she's growing so fast her true skin color is becoming more obvious. she's cuter by day even one of the kucing jantan at this housing area has been eyeing for her. tunggu mase je nak ngap! and she is becoming more clingy by day. selalu nak diusap-usap di belai-belai. and she's now into her 6months...

Thursday, September 23, 2010

you touch (with effort) & you go....

dulu saya tak kesah lalu di lorong touch & go. seat kereta saya tak tenggelam. agak tinggi. jadi saya tak perlukan usaha yang lebih untuk menjulurkan tangan yang pendek ini ke arah mesin touch & go. tapi sejak menggunakan kereta seat tenggelam nih...tiap kali lalu kat lorong touch & go, mesti tercalar sedikit bumper hadapan. dek kerana saya perlu terlalu dekatkan kereta dengan mesin touch & go supaya saya tak perlu tarik hand brake dan jongketkan bontot panjangkan tangan.agaknya hubby dah bosan asyik kene anta touch-up bumper depan, dia belikan saya smart tag haha. gila itu adalah perlian paling sinis pernah saya terima haha. syok smart tag. tak perlu buka tingkap. tak perlu beratur panjang-panjang.

tapi kadang-kadang kene gak guna lorong touch & go. kalo masa nak cepat dan lorong smart tag terlalu panjang. seriously, saya sungguh tak paham dengan design mesin touch & go tuh. nape la perlu dilekatkan ke dinding tol booth sebegitu rupa. sampai pengguna terutama yang berbadan kecik mcm saya ni terpaksa memanjangkan badan. sakit tau boleh tergeliat pinggang. nape la takde orang nak come out dgn design yang senonoh sket mcm terkeluar sedikit ke hadapan ke. mudah utk org2 seperti saya nak touch. takde ke engineer yang kreatif bole hasilkan design yang innovative sket? dok gitu aje design nye dr mase mula-mula launch sampai la ke skang. aish...bila la org msia ni nak jadi inovatif?

Monday, September 13, 2010

Big happy family....

this is my big happy family... not so big as dad have 4 siblings only..13 cousins so far...4 of which are married with 5 nephews, 3 nieces. and i can name each and everyone of us by names (or at least nick names)

and this is hubby's big happy family... very big even hubby won't be able to name each and everyone of them hehe...

and i love being in a big happy family :)

Future PM's of Malaysia

l-r: Firhad, Rifqi, Nafis, Naqib, Firman

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

bila dah penat mengelenyor....

inilah hasilnya...

terbungkang depan pintu masuk umah... 

mula-mula segan nak berpelukan...

pastu si anak mulakan langkah pertama...

pastu memang takde segan silu dah...

Saturday, July 3, 2010


saya menyepi diri. telah kehilangan minat untuk terus menulis keskeskes....saya tidak punya akses internet di ofis. balek umah dah terus penat dan tertido sehingga pagi. facebook jarang dijenguk. rasanya hubby yang baru beberapa bulan join facebook lg cekap dari saya hehehe....

a lot had happened. mostly great things. got news that i still don't officially share it with the people of the world. i dunno. i have been a bit sceptical lately about sharing everything here. i just weirdly creepy to think that people that i don't know personally actually knows a lot about me just by reading my blog. heck...hubby knows me thru this blog even before we got to know each other officially haha. yup, dia sememangnya pemuja rahsia saya dahulu.

anyhow, work is ok. life is great. but financially not ok haha. well, sememangnya duit senantiasa akan rasa tak cukup kan eventho gaji sebulan rm40k. not that my gaji is rm40k monthly. i have to have at least rm300 monthly for the check-up. last month, it costed us almost rm900 for the whole check-up. pheww!! but we decided to continue seeing dr. surinder as we feel very comfortable with him. it is worth all the thousands of money that we have and will spend in the next 5 months or maybe more.

ok, can't wait for the WC to finish. so i can have the tv all to myself back haha. cukup la sebulan bertolak-ansur secara diam dengan hubby. melayan WC bersama-sama. but it was interesting btw. oh and i miss traveling. last week we went to Kuantan with my parents. was a very stressful journey for me in the car. this position sakit bontot. that position sakit pinggang. terus menjadi manusia tidak bersyukur kerana berdoa supaya dipercepatkan bulan December. mandi pool pon tak dapat kerna tiada outfit yang sesuai. next week ke a famosa. sekali lagi terpaksa melupakan hasrat mandi pool kerana tiada outfit :( oh agak-agak bole tak terbang sahaja ke melaka? hehehe....

jom...nak prepare lunch untuk hubby tercinta. kesian dia dah berhempas pulas membersihkan toilet tadi keskeskes...

Saturday, May 15, 2010

New addition to our family...

meet Choki...the newest addition to our little family...
DOB: Apr 8, 2010

Choki grows so fast she is now a very active kitten. and poo poo a lot too!! She is the only kitten. So her mom is her playmate.

And she is now the only princess of the house. and she's proud of it!see, tido pon nak kene letak atas bantal. mengada!

Monday, April 5, 2010

weekend well spent

My weekend was well spent. 

Saturday I attended the pertandingan manik piala ftimdc at dewan tun rahah. Didn’t participate in the pertandingan. I was there just to observe. Maybe I’ll join next year hehe. Went there with Ana. Met a lot of beaders. Only a few familiar faces. I think I need to do the facebook networking to broaden my circle of friends.
bersama Pn RJ yang di admire sume beaders...

Sunday was a day full of infinite adrenalin rush. Got the corporate suite pass to watch F1. thanks to dearest mom and her big network connection. Love u mom!! Next year I wanna go again ye? Hehehe…anyhow, our suite was just across Webber’s & Vettel’s pit. Lunch and high tea provided and hubby and I were surrounded by big names from the automotive industry. Anyhow, watching the race from inside the glass was no fun. You didn’t get the experience of gegendang & whole body bergetar while the cars passes you by. So hubby and I went out to the open seating area. Oh man…I love it! The sound. The feeling. The crowd. The drivers. The starting point. Got to see Hamilton, Button, Schumacher, Webber, Vettel do their pit stop. Too bad Schumacher was out in the earlier laps. But kudos to the Lotus F1 team for their performance. Can I be one of the gadis litar next year? I wanna be the one holding umbrella for Vettel or Webber hehehe. Or can I be one of the lucky kiddos who got the chance to ask a question to the drivers? If chosen, what would my golden question be like? Anyhow, enjoy some of the not-so-beautiful pictures taken by my amateur set of hands
us outside...

view from the corporate suite...

the winners' pit area

the lucky kids interview the drivers

the start of the adrenalin rush...

Hamilton making the stop

Schumacher making the stop before he was out 

prize giving ceremony by our PM
p/s: i will upload a video once i have more free time :)

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Dear Allah....

hubby's going under the knive this morning due to this thing.
and i couldn't be there for him *sob sob*
i felt like a terrible wife

Dear Allah, please protect my hubby....

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

does anyone miss me???

i bet not haha. sangat-sangat malas to update the blog eventho i have some serious point that need to be shared. especially my take on MLM pyramid scheme. i can't access the internet at work. and by the time i reached home, i was too tired to even change into my pyjamas. let alone to check my emails. so i'll continue doing the update whenever i felt like it. maybe over the weekend yeh??

anyhow, to aisyah samsudin & farah nadz, congratulations on the arrival of your bundle of joy!!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

OMG!!! it felt like ages since i last online...arghh!!! never thought this new job will drench my energy out. i mean, after more than 3 years, i finally get to taste the not-so-sweetness of the morning traffic. crazeyhh!!! i just don't know how did u guys do that. before, i need only 8mins to arrive to work. but now, i go out at 6:45AM and only arrive at work around 8AM. bluerghh!! oh yeah, i've start working with the american company. yeay!!! better environment. better management. better food court. and i hope better future since i started as a senior position. yeay!!! 
OMG OMG it's almost 10PM and i should be landing on my bed by now. no. not landing. but already sleep soundly like a baby. see?? i'm getting older!!! huhuhu....
till i have the time to go online again...peace out folks!!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Ultimate MangoSteam baybeh!!!

so i found out my baby brother (who obviously not a baby anymore!!) did an awesome project alongside his team mates. gwe btol-btol rasa kagum & terharu *sob sob* dah besau rupanya adik aku yang sorang ini hahaha....

check out these chef-in-the-making in action here...MangoSteam
that's my bro, the one with the white cap

p/s: adik, ko hutang aku cheese cake lg!!!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

me and frens acting a little crazy...

at Green Box, AEON Bkt Tinggi last Wednesday... i had few of my close frens from workplace (now is ex-workplace) throwing me a farewell party...courtesy of ivan & kak aton...oh it was so much fun when you had your best buddies around you...goofing around...fooling around...the nite ended with a song dedication specially for me with 'My Way' and around-the-table dance routine with 'Cali Jodoh'.

p/s: hubby was M.I.A as he had other errands to do...bummer!!

Monday, February 8, 2010

ari ini kita akan belajar lagi satu health issue iaitu keratoconus.

What is keratoconus?
Keratoconus is a progressive eye disease in which the normally round cornea thins and begins to bulge into a cone-like shape. This cone shape deflects light as it enters the eye on its way to the light-sensitive retina, causing distorted vision. - All About Vision
Keratoconus (KC) is a progressive, noninflammatory, bilateral (but usually asymmetrical) disease of the cornea, characterized by paraxial stromal thinning that leads to corneal surface distortion. Visual loss occurs primarily from irregular astigmatism and myopia and secondarily from corneal scarring - eMedicine from WebMD
Keratoconus (from Greek: kerato- horn, cornea; and konos cone), is a degenerative disorder of the eye in which structural changes within the cornea cause it to thin and change to a more conical shape than its normal gradual curve - Wikipedia
 Signs & Symptoms:
1. Minor blurring of vision at the early stage
2. Impaired visual acuity
3. Poor night vision
4. Photophobia
5. Eye itchiness
6. Monocular polyopia

What caused keratoconus?
New research suggests the weakening of the corneal tissue that leads to keratoconus may be due to an imbalance of enzymes within the cornea. This imbalance makes the cornea more susceptible to oxidative damage from compounds called free radicals, causing it to weaken and bulge forward.

 Keratoconus treatment:
1. Eyeglasses or soft contact lenses (early stage)
2. Rigid gas permeable
3. "Piggybacking" contact lenses
4. Corneal inserts aka kera-ring (delay the needs to corneal transplant)
5. Corneal cross linking
6. Corneal transplant (last resort)

In Malaysia, the best consultation can be obtained from Tun Hussein Onn National Eye Specialist Hospital (THONEH).

Thursday, February 4, 2010

dari wanita kepada wanita

wahai wanita,
kamu pernah jatuh cinta tetapi kemudian kecewa atau dikecewakan? saya pernah. kecewa.
kamu pernah rasa lelaki itu adalah 'The One' tetapi sebenarnya adalah palsu? saya pernah.
kamu pernah putus cinta lantas meraung bertahun-tahun mengenangkan kegagalan itu? saya pernah.
kamu pernah terasa ingin membunuh diri setelah kecewa atau dikecewakan? saya pernah. hampir.
dan kamu pernah cuba untuk pulihkan keadaan di antara kamu dan dia? saya pernah.

well guess what girlfriends? saya bodoh. kamu juga bodoh jika jawapan kepada soalan ke-3 hingga ke-5 di atas adalah pernah. nasihat saya, jangan jadikan kegagalan itu sebagai alasan untuk anda downgrade kan diri anda.jadikan ia sebagai pengajaran supaya kamu lebih mahir handle the situation in the future. seriously, kalo kamu mengambil masa setahun 2 tahun untuk melupakan kisah lampau, itu adalah pembaziran. yang teramat sangat. bukan kah sepatutnya kamu di luar meraikan hidup kamu daripada terkurung dengan kisah lama? tak kesah la terkurung dari segi fizikal ataupon emosi. heck, saya pernah meraung-raung di telefon menyesali nasib saya. tapi does it change the situation? nope kan?

untuk mendapatkan 'The One', jangan terlalu berfikir. just let naluri kamu yang berfikir. jangan terlalu setkan kriteria tertentu. sebab kita tidak akan pernah tahu jikalau kriteria tersebut sebetulnya adalah apa yang Allah inginkan pada kita. heck, to tell you the truth, sampai sekarang saya tak pasti samada pasangan saya adalah 'The One'. yea dia menepati apa yang saya idamkan. tetapi selepas kami bersama, baru saya sedar semua itu ada pada dia. bukan sewaktu kami masih berkawan. alhamdulillah kerana dialah yang terbaik buat saya. dia juga sahabat baik saya yang terhebat.

carilah dia yang kamu selesa bersama. yang boleh menjadi teman berbicara kamu di kala sunyi. yang boleh berkongsi apa sahaja cerita. kalo kamu bersamanya di dalam kereta selama sejam, tapi hanya beberapa minit sahaja kamu mampu menjana idea untuk berbicara, my pick is kamu akan merasa cepat bosan dengan pasangan itu. itu salah satu tanda kamu berdua tidak compatible.

jangan terlalu mendesak untuk melangkah ke alam yang lebih advance. yakni perkahwinan. biarkan idea itu datang daripada dia. dia mungkin rasa terbeban kerana simpanan tidak cukup untuk menampung kamu. apa kata, kamu support dia dengan sesuatu supaya dia tidak akan rasa hanya dia yang perlu berusaha untuk perkahwinan (dari segi perbelanjaan). itu mungkin akan mengurangkan beban di kepala.

tidak salah untuk sesekali kelihatan bodoh di hadapan dia. biarkan dia merasa yang dia juga diperlukan. yang dia juga penting. jangan terlalu ego atau menunjukkan kita juga sama hebat. percayalah, ego dia sedikit sebanyak akan tercalar. jikalau perlu argumen untuk mencari kebenaran, jadikan argumen itu sebagai sesuatu yang sihat. yang akan menguntungkan kamu berdua. yang mana di akhirnya, kamu berdua mampu laugh it off dengan selamba.

dan yang penting sekali dan yang terakhir, jangan dan jangan tanamkan dalam diri kamu yang kamu inginkan seseorang sepertimana kawan kamu memilik seseorang hanya kerana kamu jeles melihat kebahagiaan mereka dan inginkan perkara yang sama terjadi pada kamu. kamu dan kawan kamu adalah dua makhluk Allah yang berbeza. dia punya ketentuan dari Allah sendiri. dan kamu juga punya ketentuan dari Allah sendiri.

p/s: semua di atas adalah coretan ikhlas dari hati saya. ia adalah pendapat saya. ia hasil dari pengalaman yang telah mematangkan saya. ia juga hadir kerana saya dipertemukan dengan dia yang banyak mengubah saya menjadi better.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

hati tak keruan jiwa menjadi kacau bilau

this is about my cat. my cute hyper-active black&white cat. yes, yang ini la...
my cat memang akan dibiarkan berkeliaran di luar rumah kecuali pada waktu makan dan if hubby and/or me ade kat umah. reason being: i want her to improve her social skills by mingling around with the rest of her habitat hahahaha. ok, aku rasa sangat cruel untuk mengurung kucing di dalam kandang atau di dalam rumah. i want her to taste her freedom. besides aku takmo rumah berbau hancing.

jadi routine dia adalah pagi seawal jam 6:30AM dah ketuk grill rumah seolah nak bagitau "hello, wake up people. i'm here and i need my food". well, not literally ketuk. she will sondol-sondol her kepala to the grill and make some noise. she will be in the house until we leave the house at 8AM for work. then in the evening, she will be waiting for us to come back from work. dia akan setia menyambut kepulangan kami di pintu pagar. she will stay in the house until hubby and i are ready for our bed. in between the time, dia akan meow meow sambil pusing-pusing kat pintu utama. itu tanda dia perlu keluar untuk do her no. 1 or no. 2 business. kalo weekend or if i'm not at work, she will stay inside most of the time. kadang-kadang temankan aku tido atas katil. our bed has become her bed too.just tepuk-tepuk the tilam a few time and she knows its nappy time. oh i rhyme!

yesterday, bile she came for her morning meal, hubby noticed that her feet were such a mess. we concluded she went 'merendek' inside the longkang. sebab lately ada kucing jantan warna kuning/oren dok meow meow at our house everytime my cat is inside. and when i opened the door, she would do the most manja 'purr' sound towards the male cat. ok moving on to her mess-up feet story. since we were late to work that morning, we thought ah well, she's a cat. she will groom her feet neatly. but in the evening, kaki dia masih sama. got dark grey-ish stains on her front legs. we tried to wash it away with water, tapi tak bole tanggal. of course, my cat tak duduk diam bila kene air. menggelupur almost cakar me and hubby. i tried to wipe her feet with wet cloth. pon tak come out the stain. i thot the stain samada cat or simen. but it smells oily. tak busuk so definitely bukan dari longkang. bila hubby cium, tetiba die cakap, "eh, mati kucing kite ni nanti. macam racun lalat je baunya". and i went huh?? terus menangis macam orang kehilangan anak. sedih ok bile fikir dia mungkin akan mati kene racun. then hubby nak sedapkan hati i. die cakap or maybe cat kot. "mane die bole mati kan. die kan ada 9 nyawa" sambil tease the cat. ah man...sedih gile ok!!

so skang tgh tak keruan ni memikirkan camne nak baikkan my cat. nak anta klinik ke? or nak try beli turpetine kot-kot bole bersihkan the dirt? 

ahhh....please sesapa bole tolong. ANY SUGGESTION?? COZ I'M DESPERATE TO SEE MY CAT KEMBALI NORMAL. kesian dia suffer. dah tercabut-cabut dah bulu kaki dok mencabut selalu. kesian sangat!!!

Monday, February 1, 2010

sayonara adios cau cin ciau....

tendered my resign letter last 2 weeks if not mistaken. had a blast moment with the immediate superior menyatakan ketidakpuasan hatiku. jap lagi the other boss plak wanted a neck-to-neck moment with me haha. ok aku suka exaggerate cerita supaya nampak menarik. hubby kate this is my only chance, my only shot to get to him. untuk clear up everything. mase tengah marah-marah last week, memang rasa nak sembur segala benda. almaklumla...aku kan verbal orangnya. takkan ade sesi tapis-menapis. tapi fikir-fikir balek, will there be any drastic changes to them kalo aku bukak mulut pon? who am i to bring differences to the company. kan kan kan?

ikutkan hati aku yang lembut ini, memang rasa kesian. sebab takde orang yang sesuai buat masa ini untuk gantikan aku. masa tak banyak untuk hand over semua kerja-kerja yang selama ini aku sahaja yang tahu. padan muka sape soh takde talent management! tapi kalo aku turutkan juga hati aku yang lembut ini, alamatnya tiap-tiap hari balek umah dengan bahu yang keras, tegang, stiff. pastu bad mood sampai hubby nak tegor pon takut-takut. ok another exaggeration haha.

haa...tak sabar nak sayonara kepada semua. tapi rasa sedih sebab kene independant la lpas ni di tempat baru sebab hubby tiada di sisi nak betulkan laptop, atau create access for me to some of the shared folder. atau keluar lunch-date bersama :(

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

eh, saya adalah produk sekolah hebat??


eh saya bukan ketawakan Sekolah Seri Puteri yang terpilih sebagai 20 Sekolah Berprestasi Tinggi (SBT).

saya ketawakan diri saya yang poyo ini

bila dah tersenarai dalam 20 sekolah hebat, baru saya nak mengaku saya adalah produk SSP hehehe...
akak malu la dik!

sumber gambar: Berita Harian Online
edited dgn hodohnya by: MrsAkmal

anyway, tahniah kepada Kementerian Pendidikan kerana berjaya come out with another way untuk meningkatkan lagi mutu pendidikan malaysia *clap clap clap*

Antara kelebihan Sekolah Berprestasi Tinggi:
1. Pengetua/Guru besar diberi kuasa tambahan untuk menguruskan kurikulum, kewangan & kakitangan
2. Penilaian laporan tahunan berdasarkan Standard Kualiti Pendidikan Malaysia (SKPM) yang diubah suai
3. Mengambil staf berdasarkan prestasi pencapaian dan bukan kekananan

Sekolah-sekolah yang terpilih:
Sekolah berasrama penuh:
1. Sekolah Tun Fatimah (STF), Johor Bahru
2. Sekolah Datuk Abdul Razak (SDAR), Seremban
3. Kolej Melayu Kuala Kangsar (KMKK), Perak
4. Sekolah Seri Puteri, Cyberjaya
5. Sekolah Menengah Sultan Abdul Halim, Kedah
6. Kolej Tunku Kurshiah (TKC), Seremban
7. Kolej Islam Sultan Alam Shah, Klang
8. Sekolah Menengah Sains Tuanku Syed Putra, Perlis
9. Sekolah Sultan Alam Shah, Putrajaya
10. Sekolah Menengah Sains Muzaffar Syah , Melaka

Sekolah menengah harian:
1. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Perempuan Sri Aman, Petaling Jaya
2. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Aminuddin Baki, Kuala Lumpur
3. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Sultanah Asma, Kedah
4. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan (P) St George, Pulau Pinang

Sekolah rendah:
1. Sekolah Kebangsaan Seri Bintang utara, Kuala Lumpur
2. Sekolah Kebangsaan Zainab (2) Kota Bharu, Kelantan
3. Sekolah Kebangsaan Taman Tun Dr Ismail 1, Kuala Lumpur
4. Sekolah Convent Kota Taiping, Perak
5. Sekolah Kebangsaan Bukit Damansara, Kuala Lumpur
6. Sekolah Kebangsaan Bandar Baru Uda 2, Johor Bahru

lagi berita: sini & sini & sini & sini & sini

cop, nape MRSM tiada dalam senarai ye? ke maktab tu kategori dia bukan sekolah?

rasa macam nak makan yong tau foo la... --> eh tetibe??

Ada apa dengan PCOS?

remember this post about me being at Tropicana Medical Center? well, i have received a few concerns from dear friends and families. asking me about my well being. at first, i was so reluctant to share about the news. however, after much thought, i think with me sharing this will help a lot of people out there that has the same problem as mine.

my meeting with Dr. Surinder Singh sometimes last 2 weeks gave hubby and i some hopes. he was a very kind and thorough doctor. i like him purposely because he didn't hide anything from his patient. after a few abdomen & vaginal ultrasound scan, i was diagnosed with Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS).

PCOS is a problem in which women's hormones are out of balance. the signs or symptoms of this problems are: acne, weight gain & trouble losing weight, irregular period, fertility problem, miscarriage and depression. in my case, i suffered from weight gain, irregular period & trouble to get pregnant. my main concern was trouble to get pregnant. after the miss-abortion case last Aug 2008, hubby and i have been trying very hard TTC up to the point i almost gave up and stress about the whole TTC period. we tried clomiphene, premarin and several injections but to no avail. several blood tests and x-ray confirms that we have no problem TTC except my period cycle is not the average 28days cycle. mine varies from 28 to 33 days even with the help of clomiphene. so it is very hard to determine the exact time to TTC. and ovulation test kit never been any help to me. and my history of cysts contribute a lot to the fact that i'm having PCOS.

To TTC, Dr. Surinder gave us 3 options; (1) Laparoscopic ovarian drilling procedure, (2) IUI, and (3) IVF. option 2 requires us to have at least RM2,000 in hand per treatment and the success rate of pregnancy is only 30% with PCOS problem. option 3 requires us to have at least RM20,000 in hand per treatment and the success rate of pregnancy is only 60% with PCOS problem. option 1 requires us to have RM8,000 in hand for the procedure and the success rate of pregnancy is 70%. the best thing about option 1 are it eliminates the root cause of the problem and the procedure is covered by insurance. as much as i want to avoid any surgery, this is by far the best option for us.

and so, what is this laparoscopic ovarian drilling? it is a minor surgical treatment that is usually done through small incision (laparoscopy), with general anesthesia. Dr Surinder made 3 small incisions; one at my navel, one at the right side of my abdomen near the ovary (i think), and another one just above my cervix area (i think). they inflated my abdomen with a small amount of Co2 so that work can be done easily without damaging my internal organs. three procedures were done on me during this time of the surgery. (1) D&C procedure whereby my cervix area is washed and cleaned to eliminate any unwanted mucous. result: no abnormal or unwanted mucous. great. (2) Dye injection whereby to see if there is any blockage in my fallopian tube. result: no blockage. great. (3) the ovarian drilling. Dr Surinder made 9 holes each at both of my ovaries. this will help the hormones to enter the ovaries. result: no implication. great.

my own experience:
i was pushed into the OT at around 1:30PM 11/1/10. well, not literally push. i walked into the OT myself actually. The last thing i saw was the anesthesiologist poking my left hand and insert some kind of white fluid. i was hoping to see some JDs & Turks in action but there were non like them. pftt. ok result from too much of watching Scrubs. that time, the clock showed 1:40PM. the next thing i know, i was moaning with pain and shivering like there is no tomorrow at the recovery bay. the helpful Nurse Salmah had to cover my body with 3 layers of blanket. 3 layers i tell u!! clock showed it was 4:00PM. it took about 3-4mins for the painkiller to take effect before i dozed off again. and it was the longest period of my time. not able to move my body to sleep in a comfortable position. had to bite my upper lip to hold stand the after-effect pain until i hurt my upper lip. and couldn't say a word to my hubby or little sister. oh i felt so helpless. masa ni terfikir la betapa dugaan Allah itu hanya untuk hamba-hambanya yang terpilih. but surprisingly, i didn't cry. atta girl!! and i was discharged 3 days later. a week after, i came to TMC for follow-up and remove the stiches. Dr. Surinder also showed us the video of the operation. i didn't bring the video home tho. however managed to find a similar video in the net.

alhamdulillah, i'm recovering well. thank u hubby for ur endless support and love. thank u ma & abah for ur time. thank u angah & adik for ur support, visit and companionship. thank u MIL, FIL, SIL, BIL, nephews for ur visit. thank u friends for the visit. thank u all for the prayers and wishes :)

oh and i like TMC so much. it felt like home spending 2 nites alone. the food was awesome. tak langsung rasa mcm makanan hospital. no smell of medicine or whatsoever. and the facilities i could say a world-class one! i love it so much it makes me want to deliver my future baby(ies) there hahaha.... 

his and her bag, ready for the sleep-in
before: at the preparation unit
after: recuperating at recovering bay

I'm now PCOS-free!!! *inshaallah*